A question of lust

Trying to act upon it as much as I can

Easter! April 8, 2010

Filed under: One night stands,So Hot,Speaking in Tongues,The Affair — questionoflust @ 3:06 pm
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Had been having a bit ofย  a rough few days with Steve, so I decided I needed a change of scenery for the Easter days. Firstly because I needed to get out of this place, secondly because in my twisted female mind I wanted Steve to miss me more than he claims he does. (baaaaad I know)

I went to see my dear and lovely friend in Ankara. She is the hottest girl on the planet (to me) and besides being smoking hot she is real fun to go out with. So most of the ingredients for a great few days I’d say.

She picked me up from the airport and of course I vented about Steve all the way back to her apartment, when we got out of the car and I closed the car door I promised her I would not speak of him anymore during my stay….I had released what I wanted to release and felt much better.

We end up drinking Raki (a turkish spirit) that night and just sat there talking, with the necessary make-out breaks in between, and we come up with the idea that we should have an ‘easter’ party. We also decide that party should have nothing to do with finding hidden eggs or a 3-legged race.

The party is planned for the next evening, during the day we call everybody we want to be there, shop for groceries and try to make the apartment as party proof as possible.

It was an amazing night! Turkish people can be so judgmental about certain things, but when they get loose….they do get loose. There was music, dancing, drinking, stripping and chocolate love making. My feel is that there will be some American soldiers that have a great story to tell about ‘the time they were stationed in Ankara’.

While things were simmering down in the early hours of the morning I decided it was time to head to bed. What do I find naked on my bed? My sweet friend wearing nothing but a purple bow and a bottle of chocolate sauce on the night stand….

I had a great time, and I will not forget this trip to Ankara soon….I should come up with something good for when she’ll be visiting me this summer!

 

Chocolate Starfish March 17, 2010

Filed under: Just saying,Speaking in Tongues — questionoflust @ 6:02 pm
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starfishing or not?I spent the afternoon in the sunshine having coffee with one of my friends. She’s a lovely Turkish girl, and one of few I have a nice friendship with.

I have learned a long time ago, I am extremely poor when it comes to giving advice to Turkish girls…..or mindset is just different and most of the time any advice I give fails…much like my own serious love life ๐Ÿ™‚

Anyway, we end up talking about a topic that seriously fascinates me here in this country; getting married young and secret relationships with people parents disapprove of.

She explains to me, like many others have that it is just seriously frowned upon to have a sexual relationship with anybody before marriage. However this is changing, and it is much the village and mountain folk that still hang on to this.ย  Strangely enough it also goes for families that are in a good position or come from money.
She continues that as a girl things are weird…on one hand family pushes you to get educated and an university degree, and once you have one, you should get married as soon as possible and start a family. Turkish girls lash out in all sorts of ways….MySpace is full of them ๐Ÿ˜‰

So what do you do” I ask “What do you do if you can’t have any sexual relations because you should enter marriage as a virgin“. Well apparently there are plenty of ways to have sex and in your mind still be a virgin…She tells me it is very common that you don’t have sex the regular way, up the bum is much better and your ‘virginity’ stays in tact.

I choke on my cappuccino…..up the backdoor?!?!?! what…with just any guy?!?!
Call me a prude, but that to me that is a special place…entry is not common, and access is only granted to a select few. All of a sudden it dawns on me that this is why some of the guys I slept with immediately went for the back side, only to be told off by me if anything bigger than a finger came close.

Wow…I hadn’t been shocked by anything in a long time…I now look at the cash register girl from the supermarket with completely different eyes!!

 

Go for the kill, or play coy? March 15, 2010

Filed under: One night stands,So Hot,Speaking in Tongues — questionoflust @ 4:45 pm
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go for the kill or not?I met a nice guy…
Usually I’m not into ‘town’ guys as they can’t keep their mouths shut. And if residing in this country has taught me something, it is that it is more important what people think you do, than what you actually do. Gossip flourishes here and sometimes that can work in your favor, but usually in my case it doesn’t.

Anyway this guy…he’s educated, speaks eloquently, has a great sense of humor and is not all over me like a cheap suit. Which of course means I am really interested in pursuing him!
Not sure what strategy to go with here though, should I just be my forward and straight self, or should I be the less aggressive me and let him make a clear move first?

Of course I have already pictured in my head how it would be…..and it would be amazing!
We’d go for a nice dinner and we’ll have stimulating and clever conversation. Afterward we’ll go for a drink or maybe some dancing (however he doesn’t strike me as a dancer) and at that point I’ll decide if he can come home or not. I haven’t figured that part out yet in my mind!

For now I think I’ll leave it be… maybe I should accidentally bump into him some more to get a better feel of the situation ๐Ÿ˜‰

 

Baby steps March 14, 2010

Well this is the first post.

Of course it is about nothing special, other than me talking to myself on how I’m setting this blog up!

Being single and living in a foreign country,ย  some times gets in troubled situations. Most of the time I’m just enjoying myself. And when I’m not enjoying with somebody else, I indulge myself with my fantasies.
A lot of the time I feel alone, as I can hardly ever share ‘what happened last night’ or ‘do you think as well that…’, so I thought blogging would be the next best thing.

What will this be all about?
Me, who I’m doing, how I’m doing it, what I’d like to do, who I’d like to do it to, and in general what I think about ‘it’ and related matters.

In the end it is like eating, drinking and going to the pooper…..it has to be done!