A question of lust

Trying to act upon it as much as I can

Easter! April 8, 2010

Filed under: One night stands,So Hot,Speaking in Tongues,The Affair — questionoflust @ 3:06 pm
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Had been having a bit ofย  a rough few days with Steve, so I decided I needed a change of scenery for the Easter days. Firstly because I needed to get out of this place, secondly because in my twisted female mind I wanted Steve to miss me more than he claims he does. (baaaaad I know)

I went to see my dear and lovely friend in Ankara. She is the hottest girl on the planet (to me) and besides being smoking hot she is real fun to go out with. So most of the ingredients for a great few days I’d say.

She picked me up from the airport and of course I vented about Steve all the way back to her apartment, when we got out of the car and I closed the car door I promised her I would not speak of him anymore during my stay….I had released what I wanted to release and felt much better.

We end up drinking Raki (a turkish spirit) that night and just sat there talking, with the necessary make-out breaks in between, and we come up with the idea that we should have an ‘easter’ party. We also decide that party should have nothing to do with finding hidden eggs or a 3-legged race.

The party is planned for the next evening, during the day we call everybody we want to be there, shop for groceries and try to make the apartment as party proof as possible.

It was an amazing night! Turkish people can be so judgmental about certain things, but when they get loose….they do get loose. There was music, dancing, drinking, stripping and chocolate love making. My feel is that there will be some American soldiers that have a great story to tell about ‘the time they were stationed in Ankara’.

While things were simmering down in the early hours of the morning I decided it was time to head to bed. What do I find naked on my bed? My sweet friend wearing nothing but a purple bow and a bottle of chocolate sauce on the night stand….

I had a great time, and I will not forget this trip to Ankara soon….I should come up with something good for when she’ll be visiting me this summer!


Size Schmize! March 15, 2010

Filed under: Body Matters,Just saying,The Affair — questionoflust @ 6:16 pm
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size doesn't matterSteve asked me the other day if size really mattered…
As we are truthful with each other, I said it did….when you are referring to diamonds!

I can’t speak for all woman, so let me speak for myself; To me it doesn’t matter at all. Fact is there is only a certain depth it can go…it just doesn’t go any further ๐Ÿ˜‰

What does matter to me is girth, or as I call it fatness (girth has a disgusting ring to it…maybe because English isn’t my first language…i don’t know..it sounds horrible).
I like thick fat ones, they fill you up and make you feel good inside….I take a shorter fat one over a long one any day!

Steve has nothing to worry about, he pleases me in more ways than only with his Johnson, but somehow I can imagine why he asked. It must be the porn we’re watching! In most porn men have humongous members and they always seem to go into the tiniest of holes to make them look even bigger.

Porn is of course nothing like the real world, and anybody that has ever taped themselves having sex (and than felt the urge to hurl after watching it back) can comply with that, but it makes me wonder….does it have any effect on him?…is he sizing himself up with these porn men?

I’ll be sure to ask him next time it comes up, and than I’ll turn the question on him….does breast size matter?


Introductions are in order

Filed under: The Affair — questionoflust @ 2:34 am
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The other woman...eeeeks!!I will most probably write a lot about this guy, so it is only fair to introduce him properly. Interwebz…meet “Steve”..”Steve”, this is the internet.

I met Steve about a year ago and little did I know he was pissing outside the pot! I fell for him hard and after he told me a few weeks later that he was married, my first reaction was “THAT BASTARD!”. After the initial shock and feeling like a moron, we spoke about it a lot and I asked him why he’d break that marriage vow.

He said he had not done it before, not like this….
Well I’m not a person to judge, and as much as that was a lie, I am not judging him….he has to take responsibility for his own actions. I didn’t want to break up though, we were having such a great time. So it continued and it still does.

I have found that this type of relationship works really well for me. I can share more than just the bed with somebody but in small doses. I don’t have to deal with any of the regular issues that are at hand in a relationship or marriage (kids, money, bills, boredom, monogamy).

There are no promises and hardly any expectations between us, we respect each other and leave each other be.
I would never want him to leave his wife, our relationship would not work if we’d be around each other 24/7. Interestingly enough I do not fantasize about him being the father of my children or anything along those lines….We just have something that’s best described as ‘best mates that also sleep together‘.

All this doesn’t mean there aren’t any little hick ups normal ‘couples’ have now and again. We have our own version of jealousy and disappointments/let down’s, but they by far don’t exceed the wonderful moments we share.

Do I feel bad about it? Do I feel like a home wrecker?
No not at all…I did…for about half an hour. I am not wrecking any homes, he chose to do this by himself. I won’t feel responsible if the marriage would blow up if our affair ever came to light. If he wouldn’t be with me, most probably he’d be with somebody else….the water goes where it can’t go.
I also don’t feel bad, I have met a wonderful guy that at this point in time fits what I am looking for in somebody I’d like to see regularly. I don’t feel bad about making myself feel good!

Anyway, you will be reading a lot about “Steve”….if we’ll stay interested in each other long enough ๐Ÿ˜‰


Baby steps March 14, 2010

Well this is the first post.

Of course it is about nothing special, other than me talking to myself on how I’m setting this blog up!

Being single and living in a foreign country,ย  some times gets in troubled situations. Most of the time I’m just enjoying myself. And when I’m not enjoying with somebody else, I indulge myself with my fantasies.
A lot of the time I feel alone, as I can hardly ever share ‘what happened last night’ or ‘do you think as well that…’, so I thought blogging would be the next best thing.

What will this be all about?
Me, who I’m doing, how I’m doing it, what I’d like to do, who I’d like to do it to, and in general what I think about ‘it’ and related matters.

In the end it is like eating, drinking and going to the pooper…..it has to be done!